Wednesday, September 27, 2006

AT ODDS WITH DESTINY...

Mood ::: Low in spirits

There were moments in life when you felt that dreams defined the destiny... and now the moments are rare and dreams everywhere.
These two good lines at the start doesn`t mean that destiny doesn`t sucks..it does..just like everyone else...

Now what i can`t infer is the alternate injection of trauma at nodes of our dreams but we can`t blame it too coz it sometime happens to let you open up and discover your ability to cope up with the worse..
Everytime a sun rises...a moon awaits a chance...
but then there is another day too.

A series of unfortunate events happening to me these days are taking the spirits outta me..nah i never mentioned Alcoholic 'spirit'...
Someone stole my mobile...i lost my keys...i lost my things...i messed up a critical code...
Actually there is a lot i have taken back from it..and its all in the form of deep diplomatic disgust from a team senior..infronta team.
Robert Bresson once said "When you do not know what you are doing and what you are doing is the best -- that is inspiration."

I sure did it that way--unknowingly and the best... but when my lead lets me into not knowing what i outto know and i messed up this piece of code.it all comes to me...everybody wanna make an ass of things and if you don`t got guts to vocalize then ready to be an ass...
They accused saying you should`ve known..gimme a break someone..will you.Its your job to let me know.
but as i know that its a 15 years of experience beneath her ass and it isn`t a 15 months for me.so i know i need to call a truce...back off.
Off late i`ve been ruminating that as people grow up, they learn to limit themselves to whatever course their destiny takes.They forfeit in the face of destiny and decide not to mess up with it.Well, its kinda two way traffic and if you`re not ready to tread along then actually what i learn is that destiny has this very strange way of finding you.its kinda like pre-planned.


You work too hard,exploit your alter-ego still you don`t get where you ought to be..and then we learn that nothings even in life until you learn to finally level them.
There were times when an unfledged immature self of our thoughts wanted to realize itself....only to be disdained by time.
Then we think that happiness comes with a price tag..or else everyone around would`ve been bearing that smile on the face.

We are unfazed and naive in the face of future.
Lets see whats next....

1 comment:

Tapan said...

yaa, i am also very eager to see WHATZ NEXT...hope it is like 'sorrow is not alone .. it brings silverline of coming happiness' .. and yaa.. u seem to have learnt a lot .. like "if you don`t got guts to vocalize then ready to be an ass..." .. gud learning .. keep it up dear ..